St Pattys Day!

Today has been such a good day! I have 3 subscribers to my youtube channel :)  How exciting is that?! Pretty exciting! :D

After I get more videos and get more established on there I will be posting a link for all of my familia to see :) My wonderful husband probably thinks I'm retarded but I dont care :) I like it!

So anyway, I had some pretty darn good Corned beef and cabbage tonight at my sister in law's house.  I had like 3 helpings of it and that was crazy enough as it is lol.  So now I'm walking around like a fatty haha. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!

Happy St. Pattys day everyone!

:)

Change of Heart

Ok so the other day I had it set in my head that I was going to get rid of the desk I had when I was in high school.  I thought it didnt have enough space for my computer.  Well after a few days thinking about it and having it up on the yardsale website fort bragg has, I figured. Hmm.. Why not just refinish it and turn it into my vanity! I asked my wonderful husband to build me a vanity but this could do just as good as my vanity!

So far I had the drawers sanded and painted with the new knobs on them.   And I have the desk sanded down with its first coat of paint on it.

I had decided to paint it black after finding this chair from Ikea.

(I'll post the links to this below!)

Anyway I thought the chair was super cute, and what better way to get some chair like this, to go with my black vanity? That says rocker chick at best! haha. The fact that I get express the way my style is with my vanity is pretty awesome.  Eventually I'll upgrade to one that my wonderful husband will build me, but for right now. this is my rocker chick awesome makeup vanity!

After its completed I'll post another blog with the pictures of everything and I'll make sure that my whole set up is complete! I'm so excited! 

Snille Chair

^^^^ The link to the awesome pink chair! Which by the way was only 23 bucks! 35 (including shipping) :) 

From the heart :)

   Ok so its 1:40 right now.  And I've got my whole life just flashing before my eyes.  Thinking about everything I've ever done right or wrong.  Fights I've ever gotten into with family, my husband, my friends.  People who have had problems with me in the past and as of right now.  So as of right now, I want to make some things clear.

-I do hold grudges. Not for long. Maybe a few months.  And hearing that Mrs. Karma knocked on their door makes me feel pretty good.  But then I feel horrible afterwards.  I'm supposed to be the better person and lately I havent been.  

-When it comes to my family, I feel that my business is my business.  I love my family to death. But when it comes to financial, or personal things between my husband and I.  I like having constructive criticism.  Not bluntly telling me that I can or cannot have something.  Or that I'm doing something completely wrong and that making a certain decision is the wrong path to go.  Family is supposed to be there to support you through everything... Not supposed to make you feel worthless or that you dont deserve things in life.  I'm not mad, and I dont want to shut anyone out.  I've been on my own before, and its hard for me to take any kind of criticism to heart because I dont exactly understand.  I had to trust my own instincts so when someone else says something... it makes me feel uncomfortable then I start to doubt myself. Which isnt right either. 

-You only have one life to live. ONE. If I want to buy a shirt or some makeup then it shouldnt matter to anyone.  I make sure that our bills are paid.  I make sure that my son is clothed, my husband (and son) are fed. Everything in that aspect will be taken care of.  So why should I not be allowed to take care of myself? I think that it is wrong for someone to neglect themselves.  Everyone deserves to treat themselves to something.  Whether its starbucks, or a small shopping spree ( like 50 bucks) or maybe getting your hair done.  You deserve to feel beautiful. 

-With that said. I'm going to focus on feeling more beautiful.  Judge me, criticize me, and say that I am wasting money all you want.  If you can think of "other things to spend money on" then fine, thats not how you spend your money then thats great for you! if you save it to buy a new laptop or something for your car, then thats awesome! I'm not there to be judging you on how you spend your money.. I buy things for myself for a few reasons. .   I've had to see a psychiatrist, I had to in High School.  I have depression.  Enough to be medicated but I chose not to do any kind of Pills. When they say on the commercials "depression hurts". It really does. You feel empty and lonely inside.  Thats why I have so many hobbies.  I want to find what I'm good at. What makes ME happy.  My husband and I have come to that understanding and he is just wanting me to focus on one thing.  So I've decided to focus on Photography.  (makeup does not count as a hobby haha thats a life style)

-I like making myself feel beautiful on the outside, because when I do that I feel like my self esteem is boosted.  When that happens my confidence level goes up, and there I am.  Happy, Radiant, Trying to save the world kind of enthusiasm. So I put on makeup, or buy makeup. (I have a growing collection).  I do my hair. Get my hair dyed, get my eyebrows waxed.  I go and shop sales racks because I'm so tired of wearing T-shirts and jeans all the time. I want to feel pretty. Because when I dont, I feel like when I walk into a room, Nobody even notices that I'm there.

-This goes for any family events.  When I am not speaking, or when I'm just kind of spaced out.  Its because I dont have the confidence I should, I dont feel confident about anything I say.  I havent done anything so awesome that people can say "way to go Amber!".. I havent accomplished anything in my life.  So when there is a birthday, or a holiday party. I dont usually bring up anything.  I just get quiet and sit down somewhere.  I dont do this to get attention, because if thats how people feel then I'm sorry. Its not to be an attention grabber, I dont want to be the center of attention.  I just want to feel included. 

Over the rest of this year, I'm going to be posting alot of things that I've found that are a good deal, or something that I get that made me feel amazing about myself.  I'm going to post pictures, and I'm going to say how much I spent on it if its a commercial product that went on sale or something.  That doesnt apply when it comes to my thrift store shopping or a yard sale find, Well I take that back. because I always find good deals so I do become very proud that I invested in something great..  I'm going to blog on Youtube after I get my camera set up, and I'm going to be doing reviews and answer day to day questions about everything.  This is a way for me to be happy, so I want all of my family, friends and especially my husband to be supportive in this.  I'm not going to talk about anything too personal, so no names will not be mentioned.  Just like they were kept out of this note.  I'm not going to be an idiot and blog about how I got into a fight with so and so or post what a horrible person this guy is. (by the way this is a general note, this has nothing to do with recent events or situations)

I want to be an inspiration for people, I want to be a daily encouragement.  Because I know how I feel when I dont have that.  So if you like this idea, and you want to know what I have to say, or your interested.  Please let me know!  I thank you all for being so loving and supportive of me and everything.  You are all amazing and I know that through this journey its going to be an amazing memorable one.  I'm going to be making new friends, and even coming closer to my family members that I've lost connection with or had a misunderstanding with.  This is something that If you do have a problem or you do want to get closer to me, Now is the time to tell me.  Now is the time to say hey, I know we had problems or we havent talked much. but I want to get to know you, and I want to be an important role in your life.  And yes this is my letter to anyone :) I want to be a role in everyones lives.

Anyway I know this is super long, But please, email me on facebook or just comment on here.  I look forward to doing videos and more blogs in the future!

God bless everyone! And keep smiling!

So busy!

Well I just wanted to pop in and let all of my (3) followers know that I've been outlandishly busy!  With dealing with my devil house and planning my sons birthday party. I havent had any time to blog!  I will soon though! :D

Snow in Fiasco!

Ok so my wonderful husband begged me to go out in the crazy snow storm ( just kidding.. we had maybe 5 inches) to go get groceries to cook him supper tonight.

I gladly refused.

Tonight I slapped together what I call "would have been chicken parm"

I pretty much just took chicken breasts, covered it with garlic powder, pepper, salt, and a tad pinch of paprika.  Seared it in olive oil until the outside was nice and brown.

Took some already made marinara sauce from the great Newman guy that has his face on salad dressing bottles also.  Put that in a casserole dish and popped that sucker in the oven (with the chicken) on 400*.

Your probably asking yourself... " why is it called would have been chicken parm?"

I have no Parmesan cheese... I know.. its a sad day.  So I'm stuck with a packet of mexican blend cheese I picked up at Walmart the last time I was out. . . So lets hope that this turns out okay because if not then I don't think I'll hear the end of it!

Here is the finished product!

To some it may look gross. but it was so delish!  The Mexican cheese actually worked just as good!

Here is a better picture of the finished product :) 

I say yum!

Blah day

So today is definitely a cleaning day.  

Have you ever just looked around and said ok... where's my maid at!  Then you look in the mirror and say "get back to work!" haha.  Yeah. Its definitely that kind of day.  

It must be nice to have someone clean your home for you.  I mean hiring in some help would be lovely but honestly who does that?  I hate spending money on chores anyway so why would I pay for someone to do my chores?  That is ridiculous!  Oh well.  

I was cleaning out my closet the other day though and I found a pair of wooden candle sticks.  I'm definitely thinking about doing a craft with them.  Not sure what though.  Any Ideas?  

I saw really cute wooden candle sticks a while back all scuffed up and sanded.. they had white washed them and put a tad bit of blue in them.  to make it really beachy like.  I know beachy isn't a word; But I just used it.

I got them at a yard sale a while back so  I hope I can turn this 50 cent purchase into something amazing.  

Yard sales are kind of sad to me... I mean if you think about it.. Remember the Brave Little Toaster?  All they wanted was love... and they got left behind.. I feel like thats the case for the stuff that doesn't get sold at yard sales...  Everyone wants to get owned! haha.  Whether your an inanimate object or a puppy.  Everything deserves a home. 

Anyway Here is a picture of the Candle Sticks.. If you have any bright ideas please fill me in :)  

Yes I tried to edit this picture because my huge computer is behind it haha.  Maybe I'll invest in some black fabric for all of my photography ventures.  :) 

Resolutions

First time blogging adventure.


This year I've been focusing most of my time on things I would like to do in my life. I guess you could call it a bucket list of some sort.


I'm tired of making silly resolutions saying " I'm gonna lose 50 lbs" ... ok. So I don't need to lose 50 lbs... but it was clearly to make a point.  I mean how many people make false promises to themselves each year and never follow through with it! Not me! Not this year!


So far on my list of things to do are pretty simple.


-Fill up my recipe box with nothing but good home made recipes.
-Master the art of baking (and cake decorating)
-Completely re vamp myself!
-Focus on my family.
-Travel!
-Take more pictures and document more crazy moments with everyone I love.
-And to just try anything new!


I feel that if you set completely simple goals then you can accomplish so much more!  I know that I'm not going to be disappointed.


By the way. I bought some completely cute Recipe Cards online today.  I cant wait to start making a mark on them :)


I dont know if anyone will ever read this. But if you are out there; Thank you.  I appreciate it. I really do.


Whoever you are. <3